The Width of a Circle (Eternal Return)- Biography and Schizophrenia

1. The tonality of the soul is a fluctation of intensity.

2. In order for it to be communicable, the intensity must take itself as an object, and thus turn back on itself.

3. In turning back on itself, the intensity interprets itself. But how can it interpret itself? By becoming a counterweight to itself; for this, the intensity must divide, separate from itself, and come back together. Now this is what happens to the
intensity in what could be called moments of rise and fall; however, it is always the
same fluctuation, a wave (Onde) in the concrete sense ( we might note, in passing, the
importance of the spectacle of sea waves in Nietzsche's contemplations)

4. But does an interpretation presuppose the search for a 'signification'?
Rise and fall: these are designations, and nothing else. Is there any signification
beyond this observation of a rise and fall? Intensity never has any meaning than
that of being an intensity.In itself, the intensity seems to have no meaning.
What is a meaning? What is the agent of meaning?

5. The agent of meaning, and this of signification, once again seems to be the intensity, depending on its various fluctuations. If intensity by itself has no meaning
other than that of being an intensity, how can it be the agent of signification, or be signified as this or that tonality of the soul? We asked above how it could interpret itself, and we answered that, in its rising and fallings, it had to act as a counterweight. But this was nothing more than a simple observation. How then does it acquire a meaning, and how is meaning constituted in the intensity? Precisely by turning back on itself, even in a new fluctuation! By turning back on itself, by repeating and , as it were , imitating itself, it becomes a sign.

6. But a sign is first of all the trace of a fluctuation of intensity. If a sign retains its meaning, it is because the degree of intensity coincides with it; it signifies only through a new afflux of intensity, which in a certain manner joins up with its first trace.

7. But a sign is not only a trace of a fluctuation. It can also mark an absence of intensity- and here too, a new afflux is necessary, if only to signify this absence!

P.K The Experience of the Eternal Return

"..All of this at the last i dimly saw, but an autobiography is an obituary in self form with the last installment missing. We think we write definitively of those parts of our nature that are dead and therefore beyond change, but that which writes is still changing- still in doubt. Even a monotonously undeviating path of self examination does not necessarily lead to a mountain of self-knowledge. I stumble towards my grave hurt and hungry..."

Q.C The Naked Civil Servant